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so........ im bored [Jul. 17th, 2006|12:46 am]
[mood |peacefulpeaceful]
[music |cat stevens]

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. I don't watch much TV these days. I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (no) I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana(ive not, this consciousness is unchained and infinite within me)
× I've watched porn movies.  (no) × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (no) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (i am an ever changing entity) × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (sharp objects are scary)
it goes on...Collapse )
× I have broken someone's bones(no, i dont like that sound or feeling) × I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.  (no, im an open book of symbols and psychological metaphors) × I hate the rain(i love the rain)
× I'm paranoid at times.  (i suppose ive my times as does everyone) × I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.  (no) × I need/want money right now.  (money is made up... who really needs it?)
× I love sushi(i honestly dont know) × I talk really, really fast.  (i talk really, really slow) I have fresh breath in the morning.  (of course)
I have long hair. × I have lost money in Las Vegas.  (no) I have at least one sibling.  (actually, four)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.  (no) × I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.  (no) × I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.  (no)
I like the way that I look.  (its me) × I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.  (no) × I am usually pessimistic(i can be)
× I have a lot of mood swings(i do have my times) × I think prostitution should be legalized.  (i think it doesnt really matter... i honestly think government shouldnt either, why should they? theyre the foundation for society, not the cage... too many restrictive laws.... goverment is far too big, a mess, and neither benefits me or concerns me one way or the other) × I slept with a roommate(no, i dont think he would like that)
× I have a hidden talent(not that i know of) × I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.  (no, not at all) × I have a lot of friends(no)
× I have pecked someone of the same sex(i dont like that word, what happened to 'made love'?) × I enjoy talking on the phone.   (no... well, it depends) × I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.  (no)
I love to shop and/or window shop. × I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal(not so much) × I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother(not at all, i love shopping and going out with mom, shes so wonderful)
I have a mobile phone. × I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.  (no) × I've rejected someone before.  (theres no one to reject)
× I currently like/love someone. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. × I want to have children in the future.  (children are really wonderful, but i am not)
× I have changed a diaper before.  (no) × I've called the cops on a friend before.  (no) × I'm not allergic to anything.  (im much better than i was when i was younger)
I have a lot to learn. I am shy around the opposite sex. × I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.  (no)
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.  (no) I have tried alcohol or drugs before.  (beer and wine.... beer is a waste of time) × I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.  (no)
× I own the "South Park" movie.  (definitely not) × I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal(no) I enjoy some country music.  (i love old country:johnny cash, marty robbins, connie smith, willie nelson, patsy cline etc)
I would die for my best friends.  (i like to think im that loyal, bold, and brave) × I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist(at times) × I have used my sexuality to advance my career.  (no, i dont have any sexuality to use)
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.  (no) × I have dated a close friend's ex(no) × I am happy at this moment.  (what is happiness? but a feeling in flux... im peaceful)
× I'm obsessed with guys(not completely) × Democrat(politics are useless) × Republican(again)
I don't even know what I am. × I am punk rockish.  (labels?) × I go for older guys/girls, not younger.  (it just depends on the person i suppose)
× I study for tests most of the time.  (no) × I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.  (i dont know) × I can work on a car(no)
I love my job(s). I am comfortable with who I am right now. × I have more than just my ears pierced(no)
I walk barefoot wherever I can. × I have jumped off a bridge(no) × I love sea turtles(theyre neat)
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup(no) I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.  (who am i to plan anything?what is a plan? a dream conjured up in the ego completely constructed of some desire(s) that are totally meaningless?) I am proficient on a musical instrument.  (i guess so)
I hate office jobs. × I went to college out of state.  (no) × I am adopted(no)
× I am a pyro.   (no) I have thrown up from crying too much. × I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.  (i.... no)
× I fall for the worst people.  (no) I adore bright colours.  (i just adore colours) × I usually like covers better than originals.   (theres no yes or no here)
I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.  (yeah) × I can pick up things with my toes.  (no?) × I can't whistle(yes i can)
× I have ridden/owned a horse(i think i rode one once) × I still have every journal I've ever written in.  (no) × I talk in my sleep.  (somniloquy? no, thats my brother)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century(my mom thinks so... but id probably be stoned in any other century (you know, put to death...)) × I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.  (.... maybe) × I wear a toe ring(no)
× I have a tattoo(no) × I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.  (no) × I am a caffeine junkie.  (no... i drink lots of soda, but no)
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.  (tree-huggy spiritual? what is that?) × If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder(no) × I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.  (records?)
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.  (goes great with mac n cheese) I'm an artist. I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.  (all my stuffed animals are in storage now...) × If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony(hmm...) I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes(...?) I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries(no) × I am extremely flexible(no) × I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business(no) × I smoke(no) I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
Nobody has ever said I'm normal. Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. × I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.  (no)
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.  (what?) I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.  (no) × I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.  (i am my own help) × I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone(but yet i always am/will be) I have at least one obsession at any given time. × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.  (no)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.  (no?) × I'm a judgmental asshole(no) × I'm a HUGE drama-queen(no)
× I have travelled on more than one continent(no) × I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.  (i used to) I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian(labels again) × I can speak more than one language(i wish) × I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.  (i dont really sleep much)
I would rather read than watch TV. × I like reading fact more than fiction.  (i like both) I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
I have no piercings. × I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.  (no) × I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.  (no)
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.  (no) × There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.  (when i was younger) × I like most animals better than most people.  (i really love my cat)
× I own a collection of retro games consoles(i used to have an atari 2600, atari 5200, 2 nes, snes, playstation, and n64) × The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.  (i need more of this) × I have hit someone with a dead fish(id like to)
I am compulsively honest. × I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.  (no) × I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.  (no)
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex(no) I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. × I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.  (i dont forget, i just dont feel like it)
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.  (no) × I dislike milk(its not healthy... i actually really like whole milk though) × I obsessively wash my hands.  (to an extent)
I always carry something significant around with me.  (my notebook) × Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.  (no) I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. × I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.  (no, html is easy but also a waste of time) I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.  (no) × Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.  (i am compassion) × I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.  (no)
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts(... i 'get' it) × I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.  (.... people will do what they do, ive no place to judge) I don't like to chew gum.  (i used to always chew gum as a lad)
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.  (i do enjoy history, but.... time travel is impossible, it only exists within you, which is to say its not impossible) × I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car(its not that, its my keys i alawys lose) I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. × I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.  (no) I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.  (sadly, my mother doesnt have a basement... but i lived in my grandmothers basement for a year) × I have a custom-built computer(my brother does, ive not the money to do that) I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.  (did i just check that?)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.  (well, Fred is very understanding) × I've gone skinny-dipping(no) × I've performed in three plays(no)
I enjoy burritos. × I'm Irish and loving it.  (no, im bloody english) × I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin(no) Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. × Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.  (no, im pathetic)
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.  (no, im always learning, always growing.... what is a mistake? is there an indellible line dividing right from wrong? isnt it all subjective?) × I sleep more than 12 hours a day.  (no) I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.  (i need time with others) × I wish I was more open-minded(i am) × I hope that I go really prematurely grey.  (ive actually found a few gray hairs... its gonna be awesome when my long hair is all gray and crazy)
I download songs from the internet. × I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.  (no) × I say random things to freak people out.  (i say them to get a laugh, because its really good to laugh)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note(what is this?) × I love playing Truth or Dare(no) × I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.  (why?)
Music helps me remember that I am not alone. × Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.  (no... music) × I think this survey is particularly long.  (so?)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.  (yes, my only friend is a wonderful friend indeed) × I can only hate someone that I love.  (i dont believe in hate) × I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks(i dont go to starbucks)
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(no subject) [Jun. 28th, 2006|04:20 pm]
[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |the moody blues]

the day so far... i awoke about 11 or so, and eva was talking to a plumber about a leak in the kitchen ceiling, so there was no water as he was working on that, which meant i couldnt shower, or so i thought...
eva tells me she called the neighbors and they were gonna let me use their shower, and it happened to be the neighbors ive been wanting to meet, FINALLY! two young ladies greeted me as i went over there, i forget one of their names though... but one was Sheena, both very neat (cute) and the house is reallyreally neat too
so now i know them....

so i was hangin around in my room after that, and decided i should go somewhere, i chose the thrift store and went, there i found a couple hinudism books to buy and some records, two who albums, moody blues, grand funk railroad, rush, and carlos santana... i thought that was pretty neat, but then i saw a girl...

she walked by and i looked at her and she smiled... which put a smile on my face
so as i was checking out she headed out of the store and then stopped, and kept looking my way and smiling, and i couldnt pay attention to the cashier, i thought she was gonna wait for me, and then she left
she walked to the right, my car was to the left... i sat in my car wondering for awhile, and decided id just go as i always do in situations such as these, i always pass on oppurtunities, why? i dont... i guess in this case im just not used to any kind of attention at all, so i turned out onto the road and started going and i saw her sitting at the bus stop... i then decided i HAD to talk to her, so i tried to turn around, got lost, 10 minutes later made it there and she was gone....

she works there at the store though, so on my next day off im gonna go there again and hopefully see her and talk

we'll see

i must say though, this was the first time i felt so strongly that i had to talk to this person... its just too bad im such an idiot and didnt go her way to begin with...

im sad, but hopeful


now i need to find something to do this evening, i just dont know what...
im gonna have some mac n cheese and then hopefully formulate a plan... probably not though


::edit: the mac n cheese was no good, been in the freezer too long i suppose, now what? guess i just have to eat ice cream

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poof... and im gone [Jun. 2nd, 2006|08:31 pm]
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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2006|09:19 pm]
hmm... no better way to break in the new home than to become awfully ill and vomit all nite

wasnt a good nite

feeling much better now, i just havnt eaten anything
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(no subject) [May. 13th, 2006|09:38 pm]
its been a little awhile...

eating peanut butter and drinkin a soda (dr pepper)
so bored...

there are things id like to type here, but i just cant seem to, im just lazy tonite and everynite

walking paper avenue sketch
tearing footsteps lightning quick
im a forest WHITE!im a
forest NITE.so
(the fire burns BRIGHT)
in kallen
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(no subject) [Apr. 24th, 2006|12:56 pm]
no time for anything anymore
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(no subject) [Apr. 20th, 2006|02:49 pm]
[music |The Moody Blues - Days of Future Passed]

its beautiful out today
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(no subject) [Mar. 29th, 2006|12:09 pm]
'you look so lonely' said the dear lady as she passed by...
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